Amongst the Thorns, She Fights!

Not Broken…

You know how free, safe, warm, and right you feel when the storm is over and the sea is calm again. I feel that way now. Because now, it doesn’t hurt anymore.

I know that because, when I listen to beautiful songs I couldn’t bear to listen to before I don’t feel my cheeks wet with salty tears, I don’t feel my heart breaking into millions pieces, my love wasted on a soul who didn’t give a damn and wasted my emotions, my feelings, my love for nothing.

Songs that pained me to listen, now soothe me, because they are just words now, beautiful, sad, but beautiful. I felt that way about this particular song, because the lyrics hit so close to home, and now… now I don’t cry, I just smile, because I know I deserved better from the start.

Broken Hearted Girl ~ Beyonce Knowles

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl No…No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now Ive always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would’ve walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me yeah
Ain’t gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No No
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

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3 responses

  1. Glad to hear that you are handling it better. So very very glad.
    It’s okay to fall for the wrong people as long as you learn and know what to watch out for and not fall for another off the same branch again. It’s a learning process and an experience. Take the good times and chuck out the rest, that’s all you can do and you’ll feel wonderful about it.
    Just another boy, sweetums. Just another boy πŸ™‚

    Offtopic, lovely song. Can’t believe I hadn’t heard it before considering I am such a Beyonce fan girl πŸ™‚

    January 18, 2010 at 9:31 pm

  2. Chavie

    Glad to know that you’re feeling better! πŸ™‚ I don’t know the guy, but I do know that you do deserve the BEST! πŸ™‚ *hugs*

    January 19, 2010 at 6:45 am

  3. *Doing that thing they do with both hands around u*

    January 19, 2010 at 12:14 pm

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